The Only One
1 November 2015, Age 20
Brooke wrote this for her cousin Terik Gagon after his sudden passing at age 17.
“Did you ever think you were the only one?
The only one who never sees the sun
The only one with a complete loss of hope
Who chooses unhealthy ways to cope
The only one who feels utter despair
And no words spoken even matter anymore
No comfort feels comforting
You feel lost and wandering
The path seems to be hidden from your eyes
Each morning you wake up and leave your house wearing a disguise
Your smile covers your secret pain and tears
You wish someone could be there so you could share
Share your story, your ups and downs
Share you happiness and your sorrows
Have someone there who could understand
Yet there is no one who seems to want to hold your hand
Your heart is broken, you’re filled with distress
And slowly you begin to feel more and more worthless
The unbearable memories and overpowering thoughts
It feels like you’ve lost all control
To take away these feelings you’d pay any cost
But there is no way to escape these feelings inside
Stuck in your racing mind
It feels as if you’ll never be fine
But no one can know
It’s your secret to hold
So walk forward you must, that facade of a smile everyday
And the emotional torture and pain goes on
And you think you’ll never find your way
But Stop.
It’s not true.
You’re not the only one
Your secrets can be shared
Each person struggles each day
And I wish I could tell you all your trials will go away
But without difficulties where would you find your success?
Without falling multiple times, you would never have progress
Progress in getting back up
Joy with each time you try
Blessed with the ability to be courageous
And find beauty in your wonderful life
Don’t give up
Don’t let go
Hope is always there
There are always people who care
Hold on a little longer
Things will get better
Your broken heart will be mended
For below all Christ descended
He suffered through your pains
Physical, Spiritual, Emotional and Mental
He will never let you go
You are beautiful, your life was not accidental
Please let Him hold you
Don’t give up this fight
And yes, it might take all of your might,
But in the end, Joy will be found
You will realize your life is profound
I know this to be true
Because I am a suicide survivor
I know what it’s like
I’ve been there
And I know at times you’re filled with fear
And each teardrop from your swollen cheeks
Burns with a pain that often you think
There will be no relief
But turn to Christ
Relief will be given
Comfort will surround Things will get better
Please, never give up
He Loves You
I Love You
Hold on
Everything has a season
And each season has it’s reason
And every reason will be known
But it’s alright
Because You Are Never Alone”
- Brooke Folkman
